UNDATED -- As Scott Peterson prepares to spend his second Christmas on California's Death Row, the decision to send him there and the gruesome nature of his crime continues to haunt at least seven members of his jury.

In a new book -- scheduled to hit bookstores in two weeks -- the jurors give readers an insight into their thoughts and decision surrounding one of the decade's most highly publicized trials.

Peterson was convicted on Nov. 12, 2004 of the first-degree murder with special circumstances of his wife and unborn child on Christmas eve 2002. He traveled to Bay Area on Christmas Day and dumped the body in the San Francisco Bay.

In excerpts of the book -- "We, the Jury: Deciding The Scott Peterson Case" -- published in the Modesto Bee the jurors talk about a suicide attempt, bouts of depression and changes to their life following the five-month trial.

None, it appears could follow the advice of trial Judge Alfred Delucchi who told them to "go home now, this part of the trial is over" on that November day.

Richelle Nice -- whose wild hair color earned her the nickname 'Strawberry Shortcake' by reporters and trial watchers -- said she still wrestles with nightmares over the trial.

"I sometimes wake up crying," she told the book's authors -- Frank Swertlow and Lyndon Stambler. "What is wrong, I think? What went wrong with my life? What happened t me? That is why I am on so much medication."

However, Nice grabbed headlines in May when she told People Magazine that she had been a Pen Pal with the death-row imprisoned Peterson for more than a year.

Nice said she wrote the first letter as an exercise suggested by her therapist, but she didn't intend to mail it. She said she wanted to tell Peterson how the seven-month trial had turned her life upside down. The mother of four boys also wanted to know why he killed his wife, Laci Peterson.

Then she decided to mail it. About a month later, she got a response.

"I started shaking and crying and hyperventilating," she told the magazine. "I didn't know what to do. I wondered, 'Do I call the police? Do I even want to open it?"'

"He talked a lot about those autopsy photos and how hard that must have been for the jurors to see," Nice told People Magazine at the time.

In December 2005, Nice suffered a major breakdown and was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward.

The jurors say in the book that they were impressed with Peterson attorney Mark Geragos' swagger, but claim he was undone by his opening statement that the Modesto fertilizer salesman was 'stone cold innocent.'

They also say that the turning point in the trial came when tapes of conversations between Peterson and Amber Frey -- his mistress at the time of the crime.

"These tapes exposed him as a man who planned events to accomplish a devious and heinous goal," juror John Guinasso said in the book.

When the verdict was reached in the jury room, Guinasso said: "There was no celebrations, no high fives, no congratulatory gestures."